Through this difficult year, I have been told by many people that I should be learning a lot from what I am going through, which frustrated me more than a little bit. I did not want to have to learn something; I just wanted to enjoy my senior year. However, the Lord has been teaching me that this was the completely wrong mindset. Hanging on my bedroom wall is Esther 4:14 which says, “Yet who knows whether you have come to the kingdom for such a time as this?” Although it has been hanging there for two years, I did not fully grasp the meaning until recently. The Lord has created me for His plan and purpose, and I am not here to live for myself. I am chosen by Him to be born in this time and place, so rather than being angry or ignoring His calling on my life, I am to live everyday listening for His instructions with a ready heart. I am not my own, so I am learning to be open to His leading, even if it sometimes feels impossible to do.